"I'm nothing in this blues laceless shoes"
Um post em inglês para hoje
It's funny how life goes by, one day at a time, but it seems time is always in a run.
In this never-ending run I find myself tired, all the time, wondering upon a sky filled with stars why? I never really felt that I fit anywhere, and everywhere seemed odd, I kept my distance and although tried as much as I can to not get caught in the tangle of other lives I could not resist their attraction and there I was, an accessory to be used as they pleased.
It's difficult to imagine a life where you never interact with other people and do not get involved into their mess, become a spectator to their own private show, each one with their own crowd and script.
Now I find myself wondering where is my show, I feel like I've put my life on hold in order to assist others, and now I'm not sure if I regret or if I intend to continue doing the same.
Also, lately I caught myself wondering about death, how cold and sweet it can be, if I could just feel it's touch for once, if I could just end all my feelings, my questions, my suffering.
All I do is wonder, if I took the right decisions, if my next decisions will be correct thus consuming my energy just trying to reach those answers.
All I ever did, all I ever said, still resonate, still counts, and now, I'm feeling lonelier than usual, left behind.
Everyone moves forward while I stand still, looking back at the past and crying while smiling, looking back at the sweetest moments I've ever lived.
and hoping those days of happiness are yet to come back so I can stop my indifference towards everyone and everything, so I can become more human and less a humanoid...
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